Context Is Everything
Nov. 29th, 2005 09:08 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
greenstormAs I whisk by my house on the way to work, I go to post on livejournal. I forget to login. Livejournal asks me to prove that I am a human by typing some letters in. I always have trouble seeing those letters, by the way.
It's very odd; I'm still sleeping six hours a night and eating ridiculously little. I don't feel as if I'm heading to burnout this way, but perhaps I am anyhow? The thought of vacations far away is a soft quiet pull, not demanding, a little like the brush of the snowflakes outside. That's how I test for burnout; I feel for the pull of somewhere else.
The snow leaves me emotionally navel-gazing, feeling into myself, a sort of quiet blanket-wrapping so different from critical thought. The feeling is like polar fleece-- surprisingly warm for the lightness.
I keep testing for my old fears-- how badly will it hurt if I don't see him for a week? Do I worry, if I don't hear from him, that he will run away? Do I worry about time constantly? I seem to be doing well right now, though. I seem to be staying in now. Things seem to be good.
This seeming probably means they are.
It's very odd; I'm still sleeping six hours a night and eating ridiculously little. I don't feel as if I'm heading to burnout this way, but perhaps I am anyhow? The thought of vacations far away is a soft quiet pull, not demanding, a little like the brush of the snowflakes outside. That's how I test for burnout; I feel for the pull of somewhere else.
The snow leaves me emotionally navel-gazing, feeling into myself, a sort of quiet blanket-wrapping so different from critical thought. The feeling is like polar fleece-- surprisingly warm for the lightness.
I keep testing for my old fears-- how badly will it hurt if I don't see him for a week? Do I worry, if I don't hear from him, that he will run away? Do I worry about time constantly? I seem to be doing well right now, though. I seem to be staying in now. Things seem to be good.
This seeming probably means they are.
