Progress

[greenstorm]

Reading back over some stuff from July 2004, and from July 2003. Kynnin breakup stuff, iin part. I really am more together now. And, interestingly, when I react to things I don't feel like lots of different people in the same head-- I'm just me, and I don't need to fight with it.

http://www.livejournal.com/users/greenstorm/96380.html

It's good to look back sometimes, isn't it?

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[cz_unit]

*nod* Yes it is. I still find that echoes of past breakups tend to resonate in my head at times, mostly around the times I would go out to meet her. Sadness comes up from places unknown. And sometimes I write about it.

But one thing that I do notice is that each time, like the ringing of a bell it becomes more faint, more quiet, less painful. And each time I learn a bit more about myself and the world around me. Eventually it will be quiet and at peace.

And I will understand.

CZ

[greenstorm.livejournal.com]

I am at peace, and it's... wonderful. The sadness that came from letting go of the grief is finally over.

[cz_unit]

*nod* This bell is winding down. How did you finally let go of the grief?

CZ

[greenstorm.livejournal.com]

*laughs*

I waited? I lived my life. I deliberately did the things that made my life mine, and that made me happy. I made sure that the things I did, all the time, made me feel stronger and more grounded and more like the person I wanted to be. It took a year and a half, but I met him the other day on the street, and it was... just past. Over. I was not desolate. I think it's because me in my life is finally more important than he'd been in my life.

[baywolf.livejournal.com]

That is so cool! even kind of inspiring- I had trouble letting go of one relationship. I had a picture she had drawn for me in the closet
but I had to throw it away because it made me think of her in a romantic fashion. After that I felt a lot better and was able to talk to her more in a just friends way.
I've heard that keeping things that had sentimental value in the relationship make it harder to let go.

[greenstorm.livejournal.com]

Symbolic stuff like that does help, doesn't it?