Family and Scatterings

[greenstorm]

Mom leaves for Japan this morning, or perhaps it's acccurate to say mom is leaving for Japan. I'll miss her. Last time when she left I barely noticed, so immersed was I in supporting myself, breaking up with everyone I'd ever dated, etc. I went out for dinner with her and my brother last night, and came back and cried for a little bit, because... I love her, and she's had a pretty hard life, and I've had a wonderful one, and I don't know how to make it up to her. I only say this because I told them a little about Bevan's house and, for just a minute, she got real quiet and looked down. The conversation continued on to something else, etc, but here I'd hurt her by bringing her back to that time for a moment.

So I'll miss her, and I'll be glad when she's back in August.

Juggler is leaving for Thailand for a bit, and Graham's heading up to his family, so over Easter weekend there will be a much smaller chunk of my-family-people-I-love in the city than usual. It's also a lot of cold-turkey on physical contact, not just sex. I'm thinking of making some sort of Easter dinner and inviting my brothers; I'm thinking of taking off to visit Bevan or Trevor in non-Vancouver type places, although the likelihood that they too will be visiting their parents is high. Likely, everyone will be doing so at some point.

I feel a bit melancholy about the whole thing, but given the brilliant golden sun and my eight-hour shift outside today, I bet that won't last. No reason for it to anyhow; worst that happens is that I garden a lot and share an Easter dinner with my rats. Tonight dinner is already made, waiting for me in the fridge at home. Today will be nice and easy.

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[estrellada.livejournal.com]

Inri33 and I were debating doing the peircing shoot Easter - I have no plans either, cept for visiting with Babboo on the Sunday. We could always do an 'Easter Dinner for those of us who arn't travelling or at SMF".