Another Morning
Sep. 13th, 2003 02:11 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
greenstormWell.
Morning again, and everything's ended up being... mostly okay? Last weekend was idyllic, so as TOW said stuff built up. Unfortunately there's a lot of my stuff built up there, and I need to put a bunch of work into this relationship stuff right now.
Luckily the apartment stuff is all done and signed, so that's just a matter of moving the stuff. So, back to two important things to be doing.
It's also not summer anymore. It's cold when the sun goes down, in the mornings, and in the shadows. Good running weather - you go outside and you have to run or freeze. ;) Thinking about doing some gardening this weekend, since there's actually some stuff to do involving cutting back and turning two beds back by the blueberries. I may even stuck my roses in the ground there for the winter. :)
I'm doing a lot of thinking -- about how sex works for me (about 50% of it seems to involve habits of some kind or another, so when I'm in a situation where I can't fall back on any habits it gets scary/tense), about what's important to me in my relationships, about how my identity as an individual fits into the close relationships that I have, about what I value in myself, about how I think about how my mind works. There's a lot of thinking to do, but in this case it's almost enjoyable. There's other stuff interspersed, there are people to talk to...
And I'm drinking my tea with honey and lemon instead of sugar and milk, and thinking about socks, and looking forward to exploring the shops within walking distance of the new apartment. Today it feels like I'm six again, where the world is a series of things that happen and no one overwhelming part of it draws my attention away from the others. Today I'm not floating around preoccupied, and it's good that way.
Winter is definitely on its way.
Morning again, and everything's ended up being... mostly okay? Last weekend was idyllic, so as TOW said stuff built up. Unfortunately there's a lot of my stuff built up there, and I need to put a bunch of work into this relationship stuff right now.
Luckily the apartment stuff is all done and signed, so that's just a matter of moving the stuff. So, back to two important things to be doing.
It's also not summer anymore. It's cold when the sun goes down, in the mornings, and in the shadows. Good running weather - you go outside and you have to run or freeze. ;) Thinking about doing some gardening this weekend, since there's actually some stuff to do involving cutting back and turning two beds back by the blueberries. I may even stuck my roses in the ground there for the winter. :)
I'm doing a lot of thinking -- about how sex works for me (about 50% of it seems to involve habits of some kind or another, so when I'm in a situation where I can't fall back on any habits it gets scary/tense), about what's important to me in my relationships, about how my identity as an individual fits into the close relationships that I have, about what I value in myself, about how I think about how my mind works. There's a lot of thinking to do, but in this case it's almost enjoyable. There's other stuff interspersed, there are people to talk to...
And I'm drinking my tea with honey and lemon instead of sugar and milk, and thinking about socks, and looking forward to exploring the shops within walking distance of the new apartment. Today it feels like I'm six again, where the world is a series of things that happen and no one overwhelming part of it draws my attention away from the others. Today I'm not floating around preoccupied, and it's good that way.
Winter is definitely on its way.
