Update

[greenstorm]

Broke up with Avi. Feel like an ass, because I am. Wish I had more self-knowledge around stuff like this to know what went wrong. I was doing the avoidance thing despite the fact that I enjoy his company, and I couldn't let that go on, cause it sucks. Maybe next time I'll figure it out before I do the avoidance thing?

It's spring outside, magnolias are opening in Burrard Station (it's still the best station in the city, go see it in a couple of days when the flowers are full open and the air smells like everything soft andf beautiful).

I go up to Kelowna to see my summer digs this coming weekend; next weekend is the rat show. It would have been Kynnin's wedding, but I'd committed to the rat show previously, and they're teaching judging, which happens about every two years. I was flattered to be invited to the wedding, though, and feel terrible about missing it.

My little baby girl who the breeder thought was pregnant at five weeks turned out not to be, so I get her soon. Turns out she was just fat-- it's a good thing for her cause it's hard on them to get pregnant that young. The breeder'd had one case of a baby getting pregant before, and I guess was just paranoid.

We're through most of the boxes, if not into the final positioning. Bob's been sinking a ton of time into unpacking -- good, cause it's mostly his stuff, but even better cause it's some of the common stuff too, and cause it's getting *done*. Yay.

Last weekend was unreal wonderful, in the sense that it was a weekend. I had Saturday off, and only worked a couple of hours on Sunday. Looking forward to a vacation in Kelowna, honestly.

Not too much to say right now, kinda numb.

Comments

[cz_unit]

I'm sorry to hear you broke up with him. But it's a good time for some introspection.

*hugs*
CZ

[greenstorm.livejournal.com]

It feels like a bad time for introspection, because of course right now it will be very painful. :/

I was sort of thinking, this summer when I go away, everything will be more distant.

I think something that drives me strongly is my desire to avoid hurting people. Makes uncovering this stuff hard.

[baywolf.livejournal.com]

I totally agree with you on the introspection thing, sometimes it's good to get everything moving smoothly emotion-wise after a break-up before looking in the rearview.

It's good to have something to look forward to as well.

When you figure out how to be strong without leaving teethmarks in people, let me know hmmm? That's something I could definitely put to use;)

[dunfalach.livejournal.com]

*hugs* You know that despite my disagreement with your lifestyle, I still care when you're hurting, aye?

Also generalized rather than situational comment: There is a difference between maliciously hurting people, inconsiderately hurting people, and unfortunately hurting people. The first generally arises through anger or envy, the latter through selfishness or ignorance, and are both generally wrongs. The third, however, is more ambiguous...it can be right or wrong. Sometimes doing the right thing means someone gets hurt; it's a fact of a fallen world. We minimize the harm to others as best we can, but it can't always be avoided.