Greenstorm is gone for a little while. I seem to have turned into Blue Girl. That's okay. Rebirth does that to ya.
I have been stripped and regifted. Before the people who loved me were my strength; now my work and my love for the land are my strengths, and people are my trial.
I am learning my balance here, in this land of people. How do I find the heart of love in me, and not the trappings only? How do I act constantly from a place that is good and giving and true? How do I protect myself in a place where thoughtlessness and deliberate malice occur as much as the kindness and gentleness I have come to expect? From whom should I protect myself, and how do intentions vs actions factor into this equation?
Some things I know. The gossip lately has been pure poison. That I will no longer be part of. Further, I will retain my integrity of action. A number of requests have been made of me recently, and it's important to me to honour them in every particular if I have accepted them. No fidging details for my own personal benefit.
There's more, but I am tired. Breakupos are hard on the soul; dancing is good for it.
I have been stripped and regifted. Before the people who loved me were my strength; now my work and my love for the land are my strengths, and people are my trial.
I am learning my balance here, in this land of people. How do I find the heart of love in me, and not the trappings only? How do I act constantly from a place that is good and giving and true? How do I protect myself in a place where thoughtlessness and deliberate malice occur as much as the kindness and gentleness I have come to expect? From whom should I protect myself, and how do intentions vs actions factor into this equation?
Some things I know. The gossip lately has been pure poison. That I will no longer be part of. Further, I will retain my integrity of action. A number of requests have been made of me recently, and it's important to me to honour them in every particular if I have accepted them. No fidging details for my own personal benefit.
There's more, but I am tired. Breakupos are hard on the soul; dancing is good for it.
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Date: 2008-03-28 10:20 am (UTC)