greenstorm | So Why...?

...does it feel like defeat to feel bad like this, and to decide that the best thing to do is just to go to bed and to sleep and give up on the day because tomorrow will be better, and then to do it?

There's that sense that if no one comes to help me, if no one goes out of their way to snuggle me and make me feel better, that I am lessened somehow. If it's just me caring for me, I've lost something.

I don't like that thought. I don't like this feeling. I'm going to bed with my book. I'm so very tired anyhow.