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greenstormI've felt adrift lately. Or more accurately, my motivation to continually better my situation has been sapped. I put up with my job, I don't wrestle my schedule into submission to spend time with colleagues and friends, I'm turning into a day-by-day. It's an occupational hazard and one I need to fight.
I also need to get a new job. I really do. And it's not like I don't have leads. It's that my current boss is such a nice guy that I hate to do this to him. That's the only thing still holding me here. I love my work -- what I do for a living -- but being at this particular company is poisoning that. It's going very quickly now-- I'm starting not to care if a job is done well or not, or even if it's done right. I'm getting less excited when I walk into a nursery or a nice garden. I'm starting to feel like who gives a fuck if the soil is healthy or not and I don't wonder, upon seeing a site, whether it's a more heavily bacterial or fungal soil. I'm becoming ho hum about mulch.
You know, this isn't quite the equivalent of shitting in a church pew during a sermon because you can't be bothered to head to the bathroom, but it's damn close. And it's a good sermon. And it's the best church.
Also, I have a very strong recommendation for everyone out there. It's called _The World Without Us_ by Alan Weisman. It's nonfiction, a book about what would happen to the planet if "the rapture actually came or space aliens instantly killed all life" It's a super neutral look just at what would happen -- to a suburban house, to the Panama Canal, to New York City, to England, to New England, to Houston, etc, etc -- over various periods of time. He talks about what would change first, what would be there for longer, etc. He tackles the global warming spectre gracefully -- oh so gracefully, you really need to read it -- and it's a super fun, totally engrossing read. Do it!
I also need to get a new job. I really do. And it's not like I don't have leads. It's that my current boss is such a nice guy that I hate to do this to him. That's the only thing still holding me here. I love my work -- what I do for a living -- but being at this particular company is poisoning that. It's going very quickly now-- I'm starting not to care if a job is done well or not, or even if it's done right. I'm getting less excited when I walk into a nursery or a nice garden. I'm starting to feel like who gives a fuck if the soil is healthy or not and I don't wonder, upon seeing a site, whether it's a more heavily bacterial or fungal soil. I'm becoming ho hum about mulch.
You know, this isn't quite the equivalent of shitting in a church pew during a sermon because you can't be bothered to head to the bathroom, but it's damn close. And it's a good sermon. And it's the best church.
Also, I have a very strong recommendation for everyone out there. It's called _The World Without Us_ by Alan Weisman. It's nonfiction, a book about what would happen to the planet if "the rapture actually came or space aliens instantly killed all life" It's a super neutral look just at what would happen -- to a suburban house, to the Panama Canal, to New York City, to England, to New England, to Houston, etc, etc -- over various periods of time. He talks about what would change first, what would be there for longer, etc. He tackles the global warming spectre gracefully -- oh so gracefully, you really need to read it -- and it's a super fun, totally engrossing read. Do it!
