Belated Update?
Dec. 23rd, 2003 10:20 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
greenstormI suppose it is belated, for a daily update. Sunday I admit to not remembering so well -- probably because I don't think a whole lot happened. We went to Estrellada's solstice party for awhile, and then I came home late and didn't sleep in. Sigh. I will practice that lost art over Christmas.
Monday was only yesterday. It happened, I'm sure of that, but it ended in a bit of a crash for me -- not much food, and not enough sleep, so I ended up not feeling too great. I think the sleep loss is bad for my memory, somehow. ;)
Today was the day of Being Together Again, and of Hoping Nice Things About People. The other days I did name as they came along, but, not having posted, I've lost the names.
My stints at VanDusen are over for now, though somehow I've still got every day planned up this week except boxing day. One of those days is a planned rest, though! :)
I'm going through books again, mostly because of the last two nights at VanDusen where I read between helping people. It's nice to be reading, not so nice to have so few books I like around. Isn't that always the problem?
I've been thinking about pain, and love, and that sort of magnetic attraction to, and confusion of the two I have sometimes. I've been poking my thoughts around the edges of the concept of emotional masochism, and just generally letting my brain spin again.
I also keep hitting interesting and unlooked-for ramifications of the Juggler not being out in public, and to his friends. They just sort of pop up when I'm not looking for them -- two in the last two days now. I hope they'll stop soon. I need to cope better with what's there before I'm loaded with more.
Also, I need to remember in a general sort of way that the fear is always worse than the reality.
Monday was only yesterday. It happened, I'm sure of that, but it ended in a bit of a crash for me -- not much food, and not enough sleep, so I ended up not feeling too great. I think the sleep loss is bad for my memory, somehow. ;)
Today was the day of Being Together Again, and of Hoping Nice Things About People. The other days I did name as they came along, but, not having posted, I've lost the names.
My stints at VanDusen are over for now, though somehow I've still got every day planned up this week except boxing day. One of those days is a planned rest, though! :)
I'm going through books again, mostly because of the last two nights at VanDusen where I read between helping people. It's nice to be reading, not so nice to have so few books I like around. Isn't that always the problem?
I've been thinking about pain, and love, and that sort of magnetic attraction to, and confusion of the two I have sometimes. I've been poking my thoughts around the edges of the concept of emotional masochism, and just generally letting my brain spin again.
I also keep hitting interesting and unlooked-for ramifications of the Juggler not being out in public, and to his friends. They just sort of pop up when I'm not looking for them -- two in the last two days now. I hope they'll stop soon. I need to cope better with what's there before I'm loaded with more.
Also, I need to remember in a general sort of way that the fear is always worse than the reality.
