Woah...

[greenstorm]

... I just realised, about a quarter second ago and for the first time, that some people think of livejournal as a communication medium instead of an information source or reference guide.

That's a very strange idea to me, but it does explain why people often react as if I were communicating my journal to them and anyone who might happen to read it, instead of just putting it there to be quirky trivia or an external reference point.

The information is still conveyed, sure, but... oh, my. The idea is very different. It's like the difference between acting in front of a camera and having someone watching you through the window in terms of intent, and the opposite way around in terms of is-that-thought-still-in-her-head-when-I-read-this. If I know I need ot act on something, I'll act on it before I put it in my livejournal. If I'm confused, I'll write the confusion here, and having written it my mind will work through it better -- then I'll do what I need to do, and maybe write about it.

Bearing malice and dislike are things I need to 'do things about.' They're also things I tend to only do in front of the camera, so to speak, when I start thinking I should feel a certain way and forget that I have control over my options. That's one of the reasons I don't write to communicate -- text is an awful medium to communicate in, through it's very good for stating reference material clearly.

Hm. This idea has confused me a little more as I go into it. It's confused me beyond words, in fact. Gives me something to think about in the bath. :)

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[silverseastar.livejournal.com]

I think I know what you mean. I too have found the odd person taking exception to thoughts I've pondered here. It's weird because just because I write about something here, and I am musing it over doesn't mean anything about my end conclusion or how I will handle myself. MMMm...baths good.