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[greenstorm]

If this keeps up I'm going to reinstate the two hours of angst. As it is I feel like it should go away if I think about it enough, figure it out enough, worry at it enough, write about it enough. I don't know. They days themselves are up and down. I am so determinedly ...I dunno.

I feel like it wants something from me. What does it want? Should I fight? Should I resign myself utterly, submit and show my belly? Should I take decisive and competent action? On what front? Should I wait it out? Should I excise or embrace? If I knew, if there was an answer, it would be easier. So, patience is called for, I suppose, and waiting to see. I am so bad at patience.

To think I am sometimes so peaceful.

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[dillen-dagen.livejournal.com]

Two hours of angst? *curious look* What is this?

[greenstorm.livejournal.com]

http://greenstorm.livejournal.com/104026.html

Useful technique in the end. It gives me permission to feel *really bad*, which I need often, but sets a nice limit so I'm not afraid of/really bogged down in it for my whole life. A safe outlet, I suppose.

[greenstorm.livejournal.com]

http://greenstorm.livejournal.com/2004/07/09/ too