Work and Play
Feb. 25th, 2004 08:31 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
greenstormWell, work goes on, no surprise there. I'd say I'm definitely settled into it now, the full five-days-most-weeks thing, and I'm able to work with it a bit to keep comfortable with the flexibility I have.
I'm getting very used to my clients. The routine is becoming, well, routine. Familiar.
Playtime, on the other hand, has unstabilised and gone spinning off into a mass of unpredictable bits. It's interesting: theoretically we've got a skeleton of a plan back up and running, or still up and running, just as we have for the last few months. This one doesn't feel (yet?) like it's a comfortable thing for me to lean on, though the last one did.
Certainly this one's very new, and you can't judge anything without giving it some time first.
I know all the unpredictability leads me to play with the idea of monogamy in my head. I play with it in a fantasy way, where I don't look too closely at the details, and where it gets me a consistent person in bed next to me every night just so there is always 1) someone and 2) the someone I choose.
It's kind of funny, in a way. The stereotype is that guys particularly fantasise about multiple women, and here I'm thinking, maybe I'd like just one? I also think about adding another partner in there, or really zooming ahead on casual dating, to fill some of these empty evenings. The weirdness about that is that what I want from my relationships is a sense of closeness and familiarity and reliability primarily, rather than either sex or new relationship excitement, so I kind of dread the first stages of anything. And, of course, by the time any relationship settles down to what I want it to be, it'll take a lot of work to fit it in timewise as a large part of the problem now has to do with poorly-fitted schedules.
Of course, that's people-play.
Work on the garden continues, though I admit that more and more I want to be able to step out my own door at any time and into it. No calling ahead to check, no stepping on a bus with time overhead, just the ability to suddenly be out in my garden, that's what I want. Ahwell. God still outpaces the bad by far. :) I bought a couple of low-growing heathers to add to the rose garden, which will then be 'complete' until I stick some bulbs in in the fall, and possibly a couple of other things as thought permits. It needs sage and thyme, too.
I have some VanDusen classes coming up, in addition to the guiding program. I'm adding more as I get the money. I look forward to those, definitely.
Pottery's got two weeks or so left and then it's over. I hope to grab a membership so I can continue working on the wheel there when time permits -- it'll be a nice option to have everyday, except within specified Wednesday class time.
I'm meeting up with Trevor again this weekend. I need to leave my purse at home. He -always- finds things I really need to buy. I always really regret not buying them, but at the same time, no money...
Maybe we should just hang out at home and drink tea or something.
More play: rereading American Gods and looking for clues that become only slightly more obvious the second time around. Cooking a little bit, on and off. Very little Everquest, the number of free hours I have over at TOH is pretty low total. Trying amusing little restaurants once in awhile. I love the tiny ones where the owners cook the food for you when you order it and they're all solicitous afterwards. Possibly hanging out at a hot tub with a friend of TOW's at some point. Hm. I'm sure I'll find newe things to do when I'm done the book too... give that one a couple of hours.
And that's a bunch of what's on my mind just now. :)
Take care.
I'm getting very used to my clients. The routine is becoming, well, routine. Familiar.
Playtime, on the other hand, has unstabilised and gone spinning off into a mass of unpredictable bits. It's interesting: theoretically we've got a skeleton of a plan back up and running, or still up and running, just as we have for the last few months. This one doesn't feel (yet?) like it's a comfortable thing for me to lean on, though the last one did.
Certainly this one's very new, and you can't judge anything without giving it some time first.
I know all the unpredictability leads me to play with the idea of monogamy in my head. I play with it in a fantasy way, where I don't look too closely at the details, and where it gets me a consistent person in bed next to me every night just so there is always 1) someone and 2) the someone I choose.
It's kind of funny, in a way. The stereotype is that guys particularly fantasise about multiple women, and here I'm thinking, maybe I'd like just one? I also think about adding another partner in there, or really zooming ahead on casual dating, to fill some of these empty evenings. The weirdness about that is that what I want from my relationships is a sense of closeness and familiarity and reliability primarily, rather than either sex or new relationship excitement, so I kind of dread the first stages of anything. And, of course, by the time any relationship settles down to what I want it to be, it'll take a lot of work to fit it in timewise as a large part of the problem now has to do with poorly-fitted schedules.
Of course, that's people-play.
Work on the garden continues, though I admit that more and more I want to be able to step out my own door at any time and into it. No calling ahead to check, no stepping on a bus with time overhead, just the ability to suddenly be out in my garden, that's what I want. Ahwell. God still outpaces the bad by far. :) I bought a couple of low-growing heathers to add to the rose garden, which will then be 'complete' until I stick some bulbs in in the fall, and possibly a couple of other things as thought permits. It needs sage and thyme, too.
I have some VanDusen classes coming up, in addition to the guiding program. I'm adding more as I get the money. I look forward to those, definitely.
Pottery's got two weeks or so left and then it's over. I hope to grab a membership so I can continue working on the wheel there when time permits -- it'll be a nice option to have everyday, except within specified Wednesday class time.
I'm meeting up with Trevor again this weekend. I need to leave my purse at home. He -always- finds things I really need to buy. I always really regret not buying them, but at the same time, no money...
Maybe we should just hang out at home and drink tea or something.
More play: rereading American Gods and looking for clues that become only slightly more obvious the second time around. Cooking a little bit, on and off. Very little Everquest, the number of free hours I have over at TOH is pretty low total. Trying amusing little restaurants once in awhile. I love the tiny ones where the owners cook the food for you when you order it and they're all solicitous afterwards. Possibly hanging out at a hot tub with a friend of TOW's at some point. Hm. I'm sure I'll find newe things to do when I'm done the book too... give that one a couple of hours.
And that's a bunch of what's on my mind just now. :)
Take care.
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Date: 2004-02-25 02:51 pm (UTC)Yeah, sure. I think you're hearing a far more abrupt and significant change than what I intended to suggest, though -- what I'm thinking shouldn't really be so disruptive.
It basically comes down to this: you know how when K is on afternoons I hang around here on one of your evenings here, until he gets home? Well, I'm suggesting that when he's on days, the four of us hang around, not necesarily interacting, just sharing the space, for the evening until bedtime (when we would probably split up again). So it's certainly no more 'interaction' or together-time than you're doing now -- I'm just thinking of preventing us from decreasing that time when K is on days, because I think we'll default to coupling off *more*.
Make sense?
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Date: 2004-02-25 04:55 pm (UTC):)
Plus it means more gardening for me! *chuckle*