Work and Play
Feb. 25th, 2004 08:31 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
greenstormWell, work goes on, no surprise there. I'd say I'm definitely settled into it now, the full five-days-most-weeks thing, and I'm able to work with it a bit to keep comfortable with the flexibility I have.
I'm getting very used to my clients. The routine is becoming, well, routine. Familiar.
Playtime, on the other hand, has unstabilised and gone spinning off into a mass of unpredictable bits. It's interesting: theoretically we've got a skeleton of a plan back up and running, or still up and running, just as we have for the last few months. This one doesn't feel (yet?) like it's a comfortable thing for me to lean on, though the last one did.
Certainly this one's very new, and you can't judge anything without giving it some time first.
I know all the unpredictability leads me to play with the idea of monogamy in my head. I play with it in a fantasy way, where I don't look too closely at the details, and where it gets me a consistent person in bed next to me every night just so there is always 1) someone and 2) the someone I choose.
It's kind of funny, in a way. The stereotype is that guys particularly fantasise about multiple women, and here I'm thinking, maybe I'd like just one? I also think about adding another partner in there, or really zooming ahead on casual dating, to fill some of these empty evenings. The weirdness about that is that what I want from my relationships is a sense of closeness and familiarity and reliability primarily, rather than either sex or new relationship excitement, so I kind of dread the first stages of anything. And, of course, by the time any relationship settles down to what I want it to be, it'll take a lot of work to fit it in timewise as a large part of the problem now has to do with poorly-fitted schedules.
Of course, that's people-play.
Work on the garden continues, though I admit that more and more I want to be able to step out my own door at any time and into it. No calling ahead to check, no stepping on a bus with time overhead, just the ability to suddenly be out in my garden, that's what I want. Ahwell. God still outpaces the bad by far. :) I bought a couple of low-growing heathers to add to the rose garden, which will then be 'complete' until I stick some bulbs in in the fall, and possibly a couple of other things as thought permits. It needs sage and thyme, too.
I have some VanDusen classes coming up, in addition to the guiding program. I'm adding more as I get the money. I look forward to those, definitely.
Pottery's got two weeks or so left and then it's over. I hope to grab a membership so I can continue working on the wheel there when time permits -- it'll be a nice option to have everyday, except within specified Wednesday class time.
I'm meeting up with Trevor again this weekend. I need to leave my purse at home. He -always- finds things I really need to buy. I always really regret not buying them, but at the same time, no money...
Maybe we should just hang out at home and drink tea or something.
More play: rereading American Gods and looking for clues that become only slightly more obvious the second time around. Cooking a little bit, on and off. Very little Everquest, the number of free hours I have over at TOH is pretty low total. Trying amusing little restaurants once in awhile. I love the tiny ones where the owners cook the food for you when you order it and they're all solicitous afterwards. Possibly hanging out at a hot tub with a friend of TOW's at some point. Hm. I'm sure I'll find newe things to do when I'm done the book too... give that one a couple of hours.
And that's a bunch of what's on my mind just now. :)
Take care.
I'm getting very used to my clients. The routine is becoming, well, routine. Familiar.
Playtime, on the other hand, has unstabilised and gone spinning off into a mass of unpredictable bits. It's interesting: theoretically we've got a skeleton of a plan back up and running, or still up and running, just as we have for the last few months. This one doesn't feel (yet?) like it's a comfortable thing for me to lean on, though the last one did.
Certainly this one's very new, and you can't judge anything without giving it some time first.
I know all the unpredictability leads me to play with the idea of monogamy in my head. I play with it in a fantasy way, where I don't look too closely at the details, and where it gets me a consistent person in bed next to me every night just so there is always 1) someone and 2) the someone I choose.
It's kind of funny, in a way. The stereotype is that guys particularly fantasise about multiple women, and here I'm thinking, maybe I'd like just one? I also think about adding another partner in there, or really zooming ahead on casual dating, to fill some of these empty evenings. The weirdness about that is that what I want from my relationships is a sense of closeness and familiarity and reliability primarily, rather than either sex or new relationship excitement, so I kind of dread the first stages of anything. And, of course, by the time any relationship settles down to what I want it to be, it'll take a lot of work to fit it in timewise as a large part of the problem now has to do with poorly-fitted schedules.
Of course, that's people-play.
Work on the garden continues, though I admit that more and more I want to be able to step out my own door at any time and into it. No calling ahead to check, no stepping on a bus with time overhead, just the ability to suddenly be out in my garden, that's what I want. Ahwell. God still outpaces the bad by far. :) I bought a couple of low-growing heathers to add to the rose garden, which will then be 'complete' until I stick some bulbs in in the fall, and possibly a couple of other things as thought permits. It needs sage and thyme, too.
I have some VanDusen classes coming up, in addition to the guiding program. I'm adding more as I get the money. I look forward to those, definitely.
Pottery's got two weeks or so left and then it's over. I hope to grab a membership so I can continue working on the wheel there when time permits -- it'll be a nice option to have everyday, except within specified Wednesday class time.
I'm meeting up with Trevor again this weekend. I need to leave my purse at home. He -always- finds things I really need to buy. I always really regret not buying them, but at the same time, no money...
Maybe we should just hang out at home and drink tea or something.
More play: rereading American Gods and looking for clues that become only slightly more obvious the second time around. Cooking a little bit, on and off. Very little Everquest, the number of free hours I have over at TOH is pretty low total. Trying amusing little restaurants once in awhile. I love the tiny ones where the owners cook the food for you when you order it and they're all solicitous afterwards. Possibly hanging out at a hot tub with a friend of TOW's at some point. Hm. I'm sure I'll find newe things to do when I'm done the book too... give that one a couple of hours.
And that's a bunch of what's on my mind just now. :)
Take care.
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Date: 2004-02-25 03:41 pm (UTC)What exactly is the concern here? Since I have worked full-time in the past (and am currently occupying myself with pursuits that add up to the time requirements of a full-time job), and since Hubby and I have been through this before when he's had a work crunch, I understand this phenomenon.
Is your concern that I will demand more time than people can reasonably give, because I have more free time available? That's not likely -- first of all, because I *don't* in fact have a ton more free time than you, and second because I understand this situation from both ends already through personal experience.
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Date: 2004-02-25 04:52 pm (UTC)