A Series of Graceful Dives

[greenstorm]

I am not sleeping much.

I feel flayed, skin bleeding pain or poetry or even strength sometimes.

I have tons of people I can reach for at any time, and I have been. This resource feels inexhaustible right now.

I am not inexhaustible right now. I am so so so tired, and I want a home that's mine to crawl into, shape to my skin, and fall asleep in. Blake was going to be gone last night -- he'd asked that I not share a bed, so I found a place where I wouldn't be leaking pain all over him. Now he says one more night, but-- I'm not sure I can be gone again.

I guess all things will come in time. Again, just one more day.

Work is hard right now. Doing things that isn't being close to trusted people is hard right now. My life is changing a lot and it's hard to be out of shelter.

So many people love me it's impossible and amazing and shelter is so easy to come by. I need to make sure I don't escape to it too often.

Comments

[sheistheweather]

I read this.

[greenstorm.livejournal.com]

Thank you for these. Are you coming up for the wine and cheese?

[sheistheweather]

I'm hoping to.

[greenstorm.livejournal.com]

:)