greenstorm | Shifts.

I am now a driver, with a licence.

I am increasingly living rurally, with a total of 12 months left in the city over the next year and a half.

I am dating Dave and also Josh, who buys plants with me and owns more grow lights than I do (by number, but maybe not by total area covered).

I am feeling the isolation of living temporarily in a place and distance relationshipping on weekends and going up to camp many weeks and so being unsettled where I live. Also of working ten hour days where I have little energy to do my own life. I suspect school will not change this substantially.

I am feeling a desire to go far off from people, to hole up in some forest with a cabin and a wood stove and explore my own life rhythms again.

I am a fully sighted person, with no glasses. I think my eyes are beautiful; I see them unmediated for the first time and they really are this color. Eye medication after my PRK surgery stops in a month. I was startled by how affordable the surgery was (less than a year's tuition or living expenses) and by how quickly I take sight for granted.

I am struggling with this winter a little. It is beautiful in Fort St James though, and there are good people everywhere, it seems.

I miss biking.

I miss snuggles more often than just on weekends.

I miss my people, unsurprisingly.

I'd like to talk to folks who do my job but who aren't at my company. I look forward to school for that.

And now back to sleep.