What skin?
Oct. 6th, 2020 12:22 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
greenstormMom came up on Sunday night. It's Tuesday. My brother came with her. I like them a lot, we've been doing some canning, I enjoy their company.
My house has three total internal doors, 2 of which are to bathrooms. It's pretty much a big open airspace with a couple rooms off that which don't have doors (and can't really, during the heating season the woodstove heat can only enter a room if there's no door blocking it) and it isn't really a labyrinth. So.
I put mom in the bedroom with the closing door because it's right next to a bathroom and otherwise she'd have to navigate a lot of stairs in the dark if she needs to use the bathroom at night.
I put my brother on the livingroom couch because I can't fit a bed into the pantry right now, and even if I could that is still right under my loft bedroom and the floor isn't in any way insulated for sound.
I sent them to the store together while I worked, but really I just needed a moment of silence.
My brother snores and gurgles when he sleeps, and he sleeps late. And he sleeps in a place where the sound carries very loudly and clearly to the loft bedroom where I'm sleeping. There's nowhere else to put him or me. That's twelve hours of body noises a day, and whenever that's not happening I have to be *on*: if I don't feed mom a stream of things to do she gets creative with ways to help and starts throwing things away or cleaning things which... only works if she's supervised. Plus I have had a bunch of things that need doing: straw needs bringing in, fencing needs doing, canning needs doing, butcher day is coming up.
It's been a lot. And they're here till Canadian Thanksgiving, which is Monday. There will be a butcher this weekend.
I need to find somewhere I can just... breathe. I can't stand the idea of communicating with anyone right now at all, and I need to do so for work. And, of course, there's that doctor's appointment in two hours that I need to be able to think and speak coherently for.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGHHHHHHH.
My house has three total internal doors, 2 of which are to bathrooms. It's pretty much a big open airspace with a couple rooms off that which don't have doors (and can't really, during the heating season the woodstove heat can only enter a room if there's no door blocking it) and it isn't really a labyrinth. So.
I put mom in the bedroom with the closing door because it's right next to a bathroom and otherwise she'd have to navigate a lot of stairs in the dark if she needs to use the bathroom at night.
I put my brother on the livingroom couch because I can't fit a bed into the pantry right now, and even if I could that is still right under my loft bedroom and the floor isn't in any way insulated for sound.
I sent them to the store together while I worked, but really I just needed a moment of silence.
My brother snores and gurgles when he sleeps, and he sleeps late. And he sleeps in a place where the sound carries very loudly and clearly to the loft bedroom where I'm sleeping. There's nowhere else to put him or me. That's twelve hours of body noises a day, and whenever that's not happening I have to be *on*: if I don't feed mom a stream of things to do she gets creative with ways to help and starts throwing things away or cleaning things which... only works if she's supervised. Plus I have had a bunch of things that need doing: straw needs bringing in, fencing needs doing, canning needs doing, butcher day is coming up.
It's been a lot. And they're here till Canadian Thanksgiving, which is Monday. There will be a butcher this weekend.
I need to find somewhere I can just... breathe. I can't stand the idea of communicating with anyone right now at all, and I need to do so for work. And, of course, there's that doctor's appointment in two hours that I need to be able to think and speak coherently for.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGHHHHHHH.
