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Oct. 7th, 2020 10:11 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
greenstormOk. Wore my shooting earmuffs to bed last night -- my ears don't tolerate earplugs - and actually got some sleep. There was a bear nosing around, so the dogs were working hard too, and I had to get up to mess with the fire some. But. Life is definitely better with a solid six hours of sleep in there.
I'm giving some thought to going to sleep at Tucker's place the night before the butcher. I can sleep with earmuffs on but not as well, they come off from time to time, and there's no one at Tucker's place right now.
Last night was our first real solid frost where the weather report said we got 0C. Everything was white in the morning and I was glad I stayed up last night to start the fire.
In terms of longer-term items: I called my work counseling line again and they said it was taking awhile to assign a counselor to me because I'd asked for a difficult one to find-- which, the only control I had over the process was male, female, or other and I said I preferred "other or someone with experience outside binary genders". Sigh. So at some point that might happen.
I also talked to the doctor again. This is the first time I've had the same doctor twice in a row in my adult life? So that's nice. A year ago I'd talked to her about my energy levels, which fluctuate and sometimes I feel literally too tired to move or breathe. She'd done some bloodwork, told me to take vitamin B, and I did that.
Now I've come back to her a year later, having taken vitamin B, working 15 hours per week less than previously, and still with this tired and honestly emotionally rough period most months that can last up to a couple weeks. She agrees that it's probably hormonal; her solution is to try some low level anti-depressants. So I'll be picking up a prescription for Wellbutrin tomorrow at a very low level and we'll see how that goes.
I'm definitely apprehensive but pretty tired of tolerating these interruptions to my life and well-being, so. I'll probably be journaling a lot to try and keep track of how I'm feeling because memory is not reliable for tracking these things.
I'm also apprehensive because I'd say about half the people I care about find their lives some form of intolerable but the idea of medication even more intolerable. I'll definitely need to be careful where I look for various kinds of support.
I'm listening to a career path webinar right now, literally at this moment, and the person just said "if you don't like the way something is going, do something else" which is definitely how I approach my life. So. Changing some things. Please wish me luck navigating this.
I'm giving some thought to going to sleep at Tucker's place the night before the butcher. I can sleep with earmuffs on but not as well, they come off from time to time, and there's no one at Tucker's place right now.
Last night was our first real solid frost where the weather report said we got 0C. Everything was white in the morning and I was glad I stayed up last night to start the fire.
In terms of longer-term items: I called my work counseling line again and they said it was taking awhile to assign a counselor to me because I'd asked for a difficult one to find-- which, the only control I had over the process was male, female, or other and I said I preferred "other or someone with experience outside binary genders". Sigh. So at some point that might happen.
I also talked to the doctor again. This is the first time I've had the same doctor twice in a row in my adult life? So that's nice. A year ago I'd talked to her about my energy levels, which fluctuate and sometimes I feel literally too tired to move or breathe. She'd done some bloodwork, told me to take vitamin B, and I did that.
Now I've come back to her a year later, having taken vitamin B, working 15 hours per week less than previously, and still with this tired and honestly emotionally rough period most months that can last up to a couple weeks. She agrees that it's probably hormonal; her solution is to try some low level anti-depressants. So I'll be picking up a prescription for Wellbutrin tomorrow at a very low level and we'll see how that goes.
I'm definitely apprehensive but pretty tired of tolerating these interruptions to my life and well-being, so. I'll probably be journaling a lot to try and keep track of how I'm feeling because memory is not reliable for tracking these things.
I'm also apprehensive because I'd say about half the people I care about find their lives some form of intolerable but the idea of medication even more intolerable. I'll definitely need to be careful where I look for various kinds of support.
I'm listening to a career path webinar right now, literally at this moment, and the person just said "if you don't like the way something is going, do something else" which is definitely how I approach my life. So. Changing some things. Please wish me luck navigating this.
