Actual Joy

[greenstorm]

I'm writing up more of my variety trials now: starting on the squash and corn. I cannot adequately describe how much joy this brings me: to have access to these varieties, to have done this trial, to spend time thinking about comparisons between plants and fitness for my purposes and variability across years, to write up my thoughts, and even in some cases to talk to other folks who are doing something similar. Soon I will even have my own crosses! It's just the best thing. It anchors me with immense gravity to this second in time, neither to the future nor the past, because I want to fully experience the *now* of this process. It's so good.