The Work Thing
Jan. 24th, 2022 01:52 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
greenstormSo, um. I've been in this diversity and inclusion workshop at work, I took it because I thought it would be interesting and it has been good but super triggering. It's reminded me of all the things normal folks can freely talk about with each other than I can't at work, etc etc. It's been shutting me down and putting me right out of commission. One of the guys who runs it is really good at what he does, good at listening I guess, and so I spoke up a little bit and after last week's session I stayed behind and was like "hey, all this stuff you're asking us to do around speaking up sounds great but I'm the only one up here and it's way too hard for me to do and figure out where to start right now and my workplace just doesn't feel safe enough to do this".
The one guy scheduled a follow-up call with me, which I just got off, and he asked about what I would want in a perfect world to support me right now. So I said:
Work covers diagnosis and trauma therapy; I have more flexible beginnings/endings of things -- not necessarily fewer hours, just I can move them around; I get more concrete info than "it's not ok to do this but it's ok sometimes" and I don't get weird looks when I ask for stuff around that; maybe bathrooms(?)
...and he added, and folks to talk to who have similar experiences.
He's going to introduce me to someone/maybe some folks who work at different locations of the same employer, and he's going to look into what he can figure out for trauma stuff and come back to me with that. This is the first time I've felt like I can talk about the whole thing with someone who believes me.
Regardless of what comes of this, I am trying. Trying implies hope for something better.
Maybe something can even be better here.
The one guy scheduled a follow-up call with me, which I just got off, and he asked about what I would want in a perfect world to support me right now. So I said:
Work covers diagnosis and trauma therapy; I have more flexible beginnings/endings of things -- not necessarily fewer hours, just I can move them around; I get more concrete info than "it's not ok to do this but it's ok sometimes" and I don't get weird looks when I ask for stuff around that; maybe bathrooms(?)
...and he added, and folks to talk to who have similar experiences.
He's going to introduce me to someone/maybe some folks who work at different locations of the same employer, and he's going to look into what he can figure out for trauma stuff and come back to me with that. This is the first time I've felt like I can talk about the whole thing with someone who believes me.
Regardless of what comes of this, I am trying. Trying implies hope for something better.
Maybe something can even be better here.
