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Sep. 21st, 2004 10:47 pm...how things are going with me, but I'm not certain I can tell you. I'm on another one of those waves of epiphany, where I realise that things bother me and that I need to do something about them, and I'm beginning to get the strength to do those things -- but in the past, doing those things has been effortless. It's strange. I think I am growing old (as we all are).
I believe in beautiful things, in making decisions that lead to solid ground, in negotiation without severance. I know many of my ties are tneuous right now, and many of the people around me are struggling with things-- the Juggler is sick, and is also dealing as always with Mouse when that must be done; Tillie's father just died, of course; Ellen is moving and consolidating a relationship and stressed about work; mom is being sued by dad again and moving.
I'm sick.
I feel the need to dip into the stream of happy people again once in awhile, though, and to go out on my bike and smile at cars that drive by. I want to lie in parks in the last sunlight of the year. Does anyone else want to do these things?
I am having my picture taken, or, I am composing pictures with Miravaz, and that is good. It's a happy collaborative experience. I need more of those. Does anyone want to be happy and to collaborate with me?
I believe in beautiful things, in making decisions that lead to solid ground, in negotiation without severance. I know many of my ties are tneuous right now, and many of the people around me are struggling with things-- the Juggler is sick, and is also dealing as always with Mouse when that must be done; Tillie's father just died, of course; Ellen is moving and consolidating a relationship and stressed about work; mom is being sued by dad again and moving.
I'm sick.
I feel the need to dip into the stream of happy people again once in awhile, though, and to go out on my bike and smile at cars that drive by. I want to lie in parks in the last sunlight of the year. Does anyone else want to do these things?
I am having my picture taken, or, I am composing pictures with Miravaz, and that is good. It's a happy collaborative experience. I need more of those. Does anyone want to be happy and to collaborate with me?
