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Tired but not completely dead after going to the thing on the weekend.
I think the medication reduction (and shift in time of taking it) is helping. I seem to have roughly 12-14 hours after taking the pills that I need to be able to sleep, so if I take them a couple hours before bed I'm lucid a little earlier. But also 75mg just makes me way, way less exhausted than 100mg.
I probably gave away 70-80 packets of seed on the weekend, maybe a little more? I like doing that. I need to come up with a better system for packaging seed, though. Portioning it out and labelling it is slow and if I wait to do it till right before the seeds go out my PDA kicks in. I think I need to leisurely design labels and fill packets earlier in the winter. This is significantly less seed given away than a year or two ago (I think my max was a thousand packets one spring?) but it's all local, and that's nice.
I should explore how I feel about taking money or not for things I make with my therapist, probably with the one who I vibe with more spiritually/nature-relatedly. I haven't seen that one in awhile, and I should. The one I'm seeing right now is the PDA strategies and therapy modes geek, which serves a very different need. I'm pretty glad I have both of them. I feel really good when I give away what I make, but I also feel like "the weird one" again and that can be kinda rough? I don't get that feeling too often, since I don't often violate important social norms (like our capitalistic mode of reciprocity).
Geese are laying. Swans are coming back to the next town over, where they will blanket the fields in what looks like living snow as they glean grain before continuing on their migration. They're usually here for about a week, and I should probably drive down and soak them in. They are beautiful. I hope they're not hard hit by Avian Influenza this year: the migratory birds carry it and spread it.
I think the medication reduction (and shift in time of taking it) is helping. I seem to have roughly 12-14 hours after taking the pills that I need to be able to sleep, so if I take them a couple hours before bed I'm lucid a little earlier. But also 75mg just makes me way, way less exhausted than 100mg.
I probably gave away 70-80 packets of seed on the weekend, maybe a little more? I like doing that. I need to come up with a better system for packaging seed, though. Portioning it out and labelling it is slow and if I wait to do it till right before the seeds go out my PDA kicks in. I think I need to leisurely design labels and fill packets earlier in the winter. This is significantly less seed given away than a year or two ago (I think my max was a thousand packets one spring?) but it's all local, and that's nice.
I should explore how I feel about taking money or not for things I make with my therapist, probably with the one who I vibe with more spiritually/nature-relatedly. I haven't seen that one in awhile, and I should. The one I'm seeing right now is the PDA strategies and therapy modes geek, which serves a very different need. I'm pretty glad I have both of them. I feel really good when I give away what I make, but I also feel like "the weird one" again and that can be kinda rough? I don't get that feeling too often, since I don't often violate important social norms (like our capitalistic mode of reciprocity).
Geese are laying. Swans are coming back to the next town over, where they will blanket the fields in what looks like living snow as they glean grain before continuing on their migration. They're usually here for about a week, and I should probably drive down and soak them in. They are beautiful. I hope they're not hard hit by Avian Influenza this year: the migratory birds carry it and spread it.
