Bah.

[greenstorm]

So what's with this? How come I feel so secure in some contexts, and so insecure in others? It really does seem to be context-related for me.

Should I remove the contexts that make me feel bad? Work through them? How can I tell which I should do? Should I try one and then the other?

Are my lifestyle choices adversely affecting my state of mind in a significant way? Is there any reason why I should be worrying this early in the game? Is there any reason why I am? Are my worries just worries, in other words, or are they based on any evidence?

Is guarding my enthusiasm worth it?

These late-night questions brought to you by the society for keeping people out of Greenie's house on weeknights. :P

Comments

[spirit-in-words.livejournal.com]

I see so much of my own thinking in yours, we both seem to have an interpersonal character.

Monique

[greenstorm.livejournal.com]

That's an interesting term to use, interpersonal character. I definitely have two sort of ways of being -- one where I don't connect to anyone, and ignore everyoen except as an environment. The other is where I do deep connections, put myself out for others, feel alternatively close to people and very lonely...

I've chosen the latter for myself, for the present. I suppose it makes sense to say that's an interpersonal character.

It's neat to know that someone else understands this stuff. :) Sometimes it feels pretty alone/different.